Separation Anxiety

I back out of the driveway slowly

Wait for my daughter to pull in front of me

In the lane next to her at the red light

Her music blasting

She is singing along

I turn mine up

And sing too

We smile and wave

I watch her pull into the high school parking lot

Only then can I get on with my day without worrying

David

David

my friend ended his life with a bullet
my first reaction
anger
then guilt
then sadness
in my darkest moments
jealousy

it takes confidence to end your own story
something i lack

dying young and healthy
was a selfish decision
he had no children to feed
no wife, no dog, no job
the love of friends and family
wasn't enough for him

he was a perfectionist
skilled in an outdated craft
the thought of starting again
overwhelmed
pride was his virtue
also his weakness

lost is another person who remembered and loved my Mother
a man who drove 1000 miles to attend my Fathers funeral
who became a part of my family by choice
and left the same way.

*9/17/2008