David
my friend ended his life with a bullet
my first reaction
anger
then guilt
then sadness
in my darkest moments
jealousy
it takes confidence to end your own story
something i lack
dying young and healthy
was a selfish decision
he had no children to feed
no wife, no dog, no job
the love of friends and family
wasn't enough for him
he was a perfectionist
skilled in an outdated craft
the thought of starting again
overwhelmed
pride was his virtue
also his weakness
lost is another person who remembered and loved my Mother
a man who drove 1000 miles to attend my Fathers funeral
who became a part of my family by choice
and left the same way.
*9/17/2008
